I think you could benefit from focusing less on these medical definitions and more on trying to figure out your own personal needs and boundaries - those are what really matter. I know we need to sometimes surrender to these definitions for the sake of getting support (E: which knowing our needs and boundaries better, informs better), but that it in itself is a form of gatekeeping (not yours, the medical and social institutions), that we shouldn't have to apply to our own thinking of ourselves.
Sorry to info dump, but these are a few links that might help you think about things a little differently:
A few years after we'd left school, one of my bullies tried adding me on fb, and when I declined the request, they sent another, which I also declined.
For anyone who is unfamiliar with these and wants a more in depth look at how Roblox is definitely exploiting kids (from 2 years ago, so you know it's somehow been made worse since)
Considering even the modest estimates of the size of the entire universe compared to the tiny sphere we can observe, I think it'd be pretty arrogant to think our spec is getting enough information to say anything about the universe as a whole is unlikely.
Huh, well now I know there's another spider horror film out there for me to avoid, but not what it's called, so that's fun lolMostly kidding, but if you do remember the name at some point, please do share! 😂
I already mentioned one movie in a reply (Arachnophobia), but another that really sticks out, and which I watched at an even younger age is The NeverEnding Story.
I remember being around 5 or 6 at a friends' house, parents just left all the toddlers in the playroom in front of the movie and had their social gathering, meanwhile I'm terrified and hysterically crying my eyes out (I'm sure at least a couple of the other kids were too, but I can't remember)..Artax in the swamp destroyed me completely, and the Darkness and the Sphynx statues, and even Morla scared the living shit out of me (yes, they left us there to watch the entire movie).
I'm pretty sure you mean Arachnophobia, which is the film I came here to mention.
Someone put it on at a slumber party before I could see what it was (definitely wouldn't have stuck around if I knew what was coming). It kept me up for months and months, and intensified an already existing phobia. It's like 30 years later and I'll still occasionally wake up in horror from seeing huge spiders in my dreams..
I think you could benefit from focusing less on these medical definitions and more on trying to figure out your own personal needs and boundaries - those are what really matter. I know we need to sometimes surrender to these definitions for the sake of getting support (E: which knowing our needs and boundaries better, informs better), but that it in itself is a form of gatekeeping (not yours, the medical and social institutions), that we shouldn't have to apply to our own thinking of ourselves.
Sorry to info dump, but these are a few links that might help you think about things a little differently:
https://www.drakemusic.org/blog/nim-ralph/understanding-disability-part-6-the-radical-model/
https://www.neurodiverging.com/what-is-internalized-ableism-neurodivergent-people-need-to-know/
https://www.autisticparentsuk.org/post/overcoming-internalised-ableism
https://web.archive.org/web/20230605065733/https://ollibean.com/intelligence-is-an-ableist-concept/
https://disabledfeminists.com/2009/10/23/ableist-word-profile-intelligence/
https://liminalnest.wordpress.com/2018/06/23/intelligence-is-a-myth-on-deconstructing-the-roots-of-cognitive-ableism/