Yes, that Sasha 🍉
Transfemby 🏳️⚧️⬛🟪⬜🟨🏳️⚧They/them
Anarchist/your local idiot with a guitar
If you're occupying land in so-called "Australia"
Introducing Trans Action Network Naarm! 🏳️⚧️(Part of a wider solidarity network too!)
I did a little snooping and found someone claiming to have a source on the diameter of a jet, but their link went nowhere. I think it's this though. Anyway, at 0.05 light years across and presumed circular, a human body purposefully over estimated to have a cross sectional area of 2m^2, would be subject to 28.5 gigawatts.
Wolfram Alpha very kindly points out that this is the equivalent of nearly two and a half space shuttles blasting you, boosters and all. Good luck!
I've no idea how accurate this is, but googling gave me an estimate of the energy required that suggests it would take a little less than three seconds to vaporize an entire body. If it can create a plasma, that counts as subatomic in my books, but I've no idea what that would take.
Nuclear would depend more on the particle kinematics and I've got no intuition there tbh. I'm sure it's certainly possible though, especially if you get close.
I have a playlist called "Loud Sleep" I put that on, crank the volume up enough that I can't hear my thoughts and wait around until I'm so exhausted I either fall asleep or get sleepy enough that I take them off and pass out. I specifically use Skullcandy crushers so I crank the bass waaaaaay up and let it vibrate my skull.
It's just a bunch of They Might Be Giants' more aggressive/loud songs and a couple that mean something to me. It's not really about avoiding feeling stuff, it's all intended to make me feel more, just without as much thinking. It's kept me alive on some really bad nights when I felt like all I could do was die.
Imposter syndrome because the people around you beat you to coming out is real and sucks so hard. It happened to me, I watched a couple of my friends go through the exact same thing after I came out and it happened in reverse to an acquaintance when I heard someone angrily complain about said acquaintance coming out after them (it was unbelievably toxic and nothing I've seen before or since).
One of the closest people in my life literally hit me with the "just asking for a friend" to see if they're allowed to be non-binary without taking hormones like I do. Even with all the reassurance in the world it can take a long time. It's so so hard, being trans often means overcoming an enormous amount of self doubt and all sorts of internalised nasty things.
You've done an amazing job navigating everything. I'm so proud of you and it only gets better from here, I promise.
Thank you for existing ❤️
Thanks, I appreciate that a lot ❤️
I'm going through some really awful stuff at the moment, and it's hard to feel proud of anything when I absolutely despise myself, but these are things I managed to convince myself are okay:
- Surviving this. I'm working very hard to get better, I have lots of regrets and getting better isn't for the reason I want it to be, but I will succeed
- I helped start a transgender solidarity network, our first rally was the proudest moment of my life
- That time I tried to stop a coal ship from leaving port (it didn't work but it did do a lot of other important things for the rest of the protest)
- I make a really mean creamed cauliflower and I always feel super proud when I get to make it and hear all these strangers say how good it is (it's the easiest dish in the world, people are just addicted to salt)
I've got unclockable's bra buds and they're pretty good when they work but it's been hard to find good bras and they can be a pain to keep in place. I've come home a few times only to realise they'd completely left the cup without me noticing.
They're supposedly like implants and tbh they're pretty convincing when you get them in something good, I really like them I just wish I had more than one bra for them...
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OP You should watch (or read if you like manga) Fire Force. The hook is that people randomly catch fire and society kinda has to deal with it, it's a fun show.
And yeah it's cooler than funerals, the Fire Force brings along nuns to pray for the person when they need to put them out.
I'm just being silly, but I mean that if everything can be represented as a matrix then there's a point of view where things like complex numbers are just "names" of specific matrices and the rules that apply to those "names" are just derived from the relevant matrix operations.
Essentially I'm saying that the normal form is an abstract short hand notation of the matrix representation. The matrices are of course significantly harder and more confusing to work with, but in some cases the richness of that structure is very beautiful and insightful.
(I'm particularly in love with the fact one can derive spinors and their transforms purely from the spacetime/Lorentz transforms. It's a really satisfying exercise and it's some beautiful algebra/group theory.)
Matrix representations in general, if that counts?
Complex numbers, polynomials, the derivative operator, spinors etc. they're all matrices. Numbers are just shorthand labels for certain classes of matrices, fight me.
If you suck at interviews cheat, or get lucky.
I flunked the interview for the job I wanted, did well in an interview for a different position at the same company, new boss loved me and I have no clue why. She got fired the weekend before I started and I got moved into an even better job than I'd originally wanted.
For my only other interview ever, I got in because I literally just googled answers to the coding test on my phone just out of view of the camera, not that they were watching anyway. I'm glad I did too, that company was an unethical hell hole and it's tragic that it hasn't folded. I left after a couple of months and got abother job with the company from the first paragraph, no interview at all, and significantly better pay (more than double lol).
I seriously have no clue how people get jobs the normal way. I've tried, I've been trying for years and can't get another interview.
Not in the US but my perspective on this whole thing is very mixed. Obviously I'm terrified of the rise of fascism and the exterminatory rhetoric that's now so common when trans people are mentioned in politics. I'm terrified for a number of my friends, and I can't help them, I can't keep them safe and I can't get them out.
For now I'm focusing my efforts locally, we've largely been able to keep that sort of thing out of Australia and have had some incredible support outside of the queer community at rallies and a recent counter protest against some terfs. I think we'll be okay, we might even make some progress down here, very exciting and it's keeping me going despite everything else.
I'm not holding up well, but I am still standing. I really hope things turn around in the US and UK soon, my heart goes out to you all. I'd say stay strong, but honestly that's not on you, just stay alive, it's okay to not fight.
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I kinda live by the whole "solidarity not charity" thing. I'll chuck whatever I can spare towards mutual aid requests, and do some community building stuff so that we can all work towards meeting our needs collectively.
I'm not particularly against charities, though I know a lot of the people in my circles can give pretty extensive criticisms, for me they just don't address the issues that are most prominent and urgent; the aid requests I see are often when people are in very immediate danger and there are an enormous number of them.
Nah fibromyalgia, life is hell
Worst I've had is cops searching all my pockets and bag when I got arrested, I guess I consented? It was mostly fine, largely because I'm white tbh
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No this doesn't sound normal. Do you have any other symptoms, including things you might think are normal but that other people your age don't deal with, joint pain or fatigue for example?
I thought I was just someone with the knees of an 80 year old, but then I got diagnosed with fibromyalgia, which is almost certainly a misdiagnosis of Ehlers Danlos Syndrome. Severe varicose veins at a young age is a known symptom of vascular EDS, not something you want to take lightly, I'd suggest trying to rule it out if you do have other symptoms as it's life threatening.
I have no reason to diagnose you, so don't take my suggestion of EDS that way. It's just worth taking things seriously if your quality of life is being impacted because it might save you a lot of pain in the future. Hence be on the lookout for other problems and consider that they may be related. You should also be careful of doctors dismissing your symptoms as it's extremely common for illnesses like this to be dismissed as "all in your head" especially if you're a woman.
Regardless of other symptoms, I'd still suggest you take it seriously and be sure your doctor is doing the same and not just declaring you healthy for no obvious reason.
- Non restful sleep (I wake up feeling exhausted)
- I sleep with a body pillow because my body is too uncomfortable to support itself
- Insomnia
- Brain fog
- Extreme fatigue
- Tendons that like to dislocate (clicky/crunchy joints)
- Constantly getting injuries from light exercise
- Joint pain from everyday activities (it's physically painful to use my phone while I write this)
- Regular muscle twitches
- Widespread aches and pain
- IBS
- Acid reflux/heartburn
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I think they were just being careful not to erase or assume your personal experiences, at least that's how I'm used to that language being used. It would really come down to the context though.
If they didn't stop to actually ask, I wouldn't think that's a question in any case.
Work makes me use a Mac, and the main setting I always want to change is the power state to off.
Serious answer though, motion blur in games, ick. I also usually turn off audio normalisation and max out the quality settings for streaming audio apps
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I'm not in anything resembling a hetero relationship, and I'm not even on the gender binary so gender roles aren't something I ever considered in what I wrote, I don't know what gave that impression but I do apologise for it. I also made it a point to state that my issues aren't to do with individuals, so I'm not sure what you mean there.
My problem is mainly that marriage has historically excluded queer relationships, and through marriage equality has only acted as a way to deny queer culture and replace it with an "acceptable" version. I've no interest in marriage as an institution for its exclusion of relationships that don't fit a traditional western (in my country at least, but the restriction on form still applies in lots of non western places) format, even one that's been widened the tiniest bit to include gay, lesbian or bi couples. It still excludes transgender people in many places, and makes absolutely no room for things like polyamory and other structures that deviate from the norm.
As I see it, it's literally a form of coercion exercised by the state to control relationships. There's no good reason to lock benefits behind it in the first place, but the fact that people are denied access just because they don't love people "the right way" is objectively disgusting.
After some more thought: One of my main gripes with marriage is its erasure of the non-traditional, so I'm very confused that you've interpreted my first comment as saying the opposite somehow.
No clue where the image is from, sorry.
Yeah, figured it would be something relativistic like that, I was just looking at overall power to do that back of the envelope calculation. Considering how high the energy is at ~0.25c, it makes me wonder what the average particle spacing is in the jet at that diameter.
I expect a lot wider too, the jets will diverge of course so it's going to depend on how far away from the star you're measuring. I just took 0.05lyr because it's a size I had a very shitty source for hahaha.