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Oh, like German "Fach" then, I assume? That does actually make sense
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something fucked with your attachment style at some point in childhood
Ha, if that ain't the truth with me - and people claim you can't diagonse people over the internet from just their comments. Although I guess if I were to use the outdated terms, I'd definitely have both mommy and daddy issues in that case.
I know that there were (are?) browser extensions that fetch and display "karma" on profiles, at the very least on firefox. Might be worth a search for people interested in statistics and numbers going up.
Yeah, that was clearly just the group having fun, sounds like it might have been some kind of in-joke. Stuff like keygen music and adding extra fun stuff to your cracks has always been part of the culture. For the most part, while I'm not saying there is zero risk, but as long as it's from verified groups with good reputation, your pirated software will be safe to use - also part of the culture.
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Oh, I just realised (English not being my first language), I meant "just" a psychiatric clinic, not a criminal psych ward, I guess that's the confusion part showing on my end, lol.
Thankfully, no manic phases for me, but I met several people over the course of my life that had them (one woman I had a short relationship with used to tell me about the stuff she ended up doing during manic phases in her past, oh boy, it can get both scary and funny, but always interesting). I can fully believe and understand that he would have been genuinely sorry in that moment and appreciative and glad to have heard that from you. Another patient only hearing half of it makes it quite funny, I wonder what he thought in his head about the context with seeing the other guy go "oh thank god".
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Wait, so if I have that same thing as a cishet guy, does it mean I have mommy issues? Or... female focused daddy issues? I always knew my sexuality was needlessly complicated
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I know there have to have been even weirder ones I got over the years, but what stuck with me is when a nurse in a ~psych ward~ psychiatric clinic called me (a patient) being like a "weird, confused professor" as a genuine compliment.
Mayo + Ketchup combined, the classic "Rot-Weis"-combo in Germany.
That or, preferrably, mayo + a good chilli sauce
For anyone wanting a single click link: [email protected] - some good stuff there
Hm, lets see if I can still get it together, it has been years since I read Lacan. All of this should be viewed as just from the top off my head the way I remember/interpreted it.
The phallus for Lacan is the imagined omnipotence and agency of our parents (or other caregivers) as we are a very young child and completely dependent on them, turned into a fundamental aspect of the unconscious. Further, it is some desirable aspect, that we imagined makes our caregiver desire other things more than our own needs. (Think: A mother may not immediately feed a child because she is occupied with something else, like the father.) It is the idea of having something, that can fulfil your needs - but is also intimidating and unpredictable, powerful yet volatile. In sexuation, Lacan argues, the "male" sexuation (note that Lacan already did not completely tie this to sex nor even gender as such, more to sexual roles that develop more broadly but have tendencies) projects this onto the proper phallus, i.e. penis, and desires to control it and use it, i.e. overcome the unconscious concept of castration (the realisation of your own powerlessness and dependency). Whereas the "female" sexuation starts to project onto the phallus the primal desire of getting back the symbolic phallus - fetishising it as something powerful that takes control of you and ultimately will enable you to reach the object of desire. Note that this object of desire to Lacan is a complex concept in the unconscious, and I can't get it all together (and assume I already misremembered some stuff along the way), but at its core, it is an unreachable, unimaginable part of the unconscious, around which the rest of the unconscious circles, never quite reaching it.
The original image was just an image of a possessive gf holding up a guy by his dick.
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machyeen rule
*Dryena
Wenn ist das Nunstück git und Slotermeyer? Ja! Beiherhund das Oder die Flipperwaldt gersput!
So, I recently learned about my own autism, also in my 30s, and I have begun the process of consciously unmasking quite recently - not a lot of experience yet.
What I've been doing is using my overactive self-reflection that was honed from going undiagnosed and being high-masking, to analyse where I might have been masking, what behaviour I might have done just to fit a specific role. For example, today I accepted some cake that a friend advertised in a group chat, that no one else seemed to want. In hindsight, while it was delicious, I was neither hungry for it, nor did I want to deal with the stress of him coming over to deliver it. But when I reflected on it, I realised I actually did this because I had internalised it as behaviour that is conducive to social connection, and "what is expected of me" when someon offers cake, even when I now very much feel the stress of having been interrupted by the offer, by accepring it, by getting myself ready to leave my apartment, actually going outside to meet up, the smalltalk involved, walking with a cake through the street afterwards. All stuff that actually stressed me out quite a lot.
While waiting for him outside, I allowed myself to close my eyes, listen to music and rythmitically drum on my thighs consciously - something that I know I repressed completely before, without even knowing. Unlike in the decades before, I also did not focus on thoughts of self-loathing like "why is something so simple so hard for you? What the hell is wrong with you?", consciously pushing thoughts and feelings like that away as best I could.
At the moment, I am very much still sorting what even is behaviour that comes to me intuitively from "myself" and what is a mask - mostly by reflecting on the amounts of stress and overstimulation I feel after the fact, and then trying to consciously avoid the things that I realise, after the fact, were most likely long internalised masking behaviour.
That all being said, I also try to appreciate my masks as something I can go back to as a talent, when the tradeoff of their use is worth the additional stress. Being able to speak publicly, being able to look people in the eyes/face if needed, and other things, are good to have in some situations.
Also, learn how to fly drones if you can, if (when?) things go shit-fan-hitting globally, that seems like a really useful skill to have in your group, considering how the face of warfare looks at the moment.
With a quick reminder: If you in any way can, don't do this solo, connect with others, don't get arrogant about it, either. The fascist preppers have a huge weakness in their narcissistic individualist "I am better than the sheep" prepping style. Being able to actually support and organise a community in the potentially coming chaos is important.
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I feel that, I am currently on a waiting list for an official diagnosis I managed to organise with the help of my current psychiatrist. For me, here in Germany, I searched for "adult autism diagnostic" on maps, and it gave me a clinic with a department a few kilometres away in a big city, with their waiting list being roughly a year long.
Resources for autistic adults are super scarce, considering how many undiagnosed people have gone undiscovered from lack of awareness in the past decades.
Same here, sometimes I feel actual shame, which is ridiculous, but it works for me and hasn't let me down so far in the past years
Stimmt, ich hatte einfach nur phonetisch "übersetzt" weil es lustig klang - aber ein paar Stunden danach ist mir auch wieder eingefallen, dass "crease" ja selbst auch ein Wort war, hatte dann aber keine Lust mehr es zu korrigieren/zu ändern.
Exactly, what, does she think she just fell out of a coconut tree or what?
It is 100% worth it. For a way too long time in my life, I assumed it was just "edgy grimdark badass violence", because I had only had a quick look at the first chapter. Without spoiling too much - it is in fact one of the best character explorations out there and masterfully develops from that initially simple-seeming premise.
Personally, it became my favourite manga, and one of my favourite stories told, period.