I redirect it into my work and art for how long this bullshit war with Urkaine and catrsation of my country happens. But it can't work for years, and I strugle to find a way out. I feel I'd have a hard time containing it anymore.
I'm not afraid of suffering more if I even can, lmao, but I'm afraid if the fall happens, the power would be captured by the nazis who have overwhelmed even tankies there, and it all would go even worse.
I was protesting, I'm still exposuring my peers to my ideas, but at times it feels like Pu7in and his regime would outlive me. It doesn't need to be eternal, it only needs to outlive those who know it's all wrong and reach the point of our self-destruction as a kind, that is speeded up a lot by this country having the diertiest places in the world like Norilsk.
Thank you for inspiring me. I try to collect money to move, and although it seems like a lost cause rn, your positive experience makes me sure I do the right thing.
I can't tell you how I appreciate your long answer. I already do parts of what you are suggesting. And I'd keep pushing. And would try to find some more island of joy that'd keep me sane in these tiring times. As for now, only my GF keeps me afloat and I abandoned every hobby that needs my attention for I can't manage it, but I'd try and find. Thank you.
I'd be a sucker for saying I can't go full Luigi because I treasure my loved ones more than myself and I am afraid they'd borrow the weight of anything I do before I k-m-s. I'm no person to leave them with that publicity and that responsibility for my actions. With how my hatred flows high, my love and my fear for them is still stronger.
I continue to build my capital to be able to leave, but both the current state and others make leaving harder for obvious reasons. I'm kinda jelly now that my mates used their chance to study in Finland, Spain etc with a chance to get locked into citizenship when they were teens and I missed that opportunity. Now I need to work hard to even stay alive and work twice as hard to move, like it's told in Alice series by Lewis Carrol. I love this book and despise it for how it's real.
The opening rant of Kaine refers to something in the late game and it's soulcrushing, but I love it and how they chose to scream at you on the first launch of the game when you don't even know who's speaking. That sets the tone.
I'm on the other side, but what LLMs did - they taught me to cherish unique content creators. Just a week ago I had a very specific question and an indian guy on YT put an effort to draw diagrams explaining it in his video. His English was bad to be honest, but I appreciated how he fought with it and made his best to explain the subject at hand with all the challenges he faced. I came to enjoy people who do stuff that can't be average'd by the math machine, I came to praise weirdos like myself even more. Being unique, being yourself, being deviant is what makes you more human than you are, that's what maybe can be called your soul.
more like mentally unwell people who get that invested in the media they come to analyze the bone structure of a character and link it as a reason to some imaginary removedness
The important thing is you keep pushing, like a little and fucking insufferable turtle. They all seem slow, even to themselves, but miss this fucker for a second and they are far away. I'd like you to keep saving (posting?) updates and check your older photoes as you go and see how high you climbed. I wish you well on your gender journey (:
With how different bodies allow different speeds of change, you are definetely in the speedrunners league there. The latter one reminds of my one good collegue who was born like that, and you are already there. Get used to be an inspiration for other aspiring women and a source of tips (:
My classmate who wore glasses before told me they did it for 20k roubles, like $200 today, so the prices are all over the place, but I'd keep your comment in mind and would research the clinic beforehand so it wouldn't look like a makeshift tent with some retired soviet equipment.
I redirect it into my work and art for how long this bullshit war with Urkaine and catrsation of my country happens. But it can't work for years, and I strugle to find a way out. I feel I'd have a hard time containing it anymore.