Yeah, and it's OK to feel sad, I'd imagine that's a normal reaction to have in that situation. In my experience it's a rough part of the process of getting back to a better normal. Hope you can get to the better parts sooner than later, stranger :]
Worked with a guy who was told no by the CFO for one of his lame promo ideas, and his response was to slam the phone down, grab a wooden yard stick, and start whaling on one of the fake columns out on his show floor for several minutes before it broke in half and he stormed out.
Same. The only series of Dean's I think I liked was Odd Thomas and I read them years ago.