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Lumelore (She/her)

@ Lumelore @lemmy.blahaj.zone

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I am a trans woman and a computer nerd :3

  • Upgrade to Windows today!

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  • I used a Windows VM when I was in college. Even if you are pursuing a computer science degree, yes, some professors assume/expect that everyone will be using Windows. Using a VM also has the added benefit of you being easily able to get rid of all the programs they made you install as well once the semester is over.

  • Got my balls destroyed today

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  • Thanks for the advice. It was just an orchi. I did piss like a horse when I got home but idk if they had a catheter in or not.

  • Got my balls destroyed today

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  • No but I did think about it. I decided that my balls are better off in the garbage because I hate them so much.

  • Got my balls destroyed today

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  • All the cool girls hang out in the Tomcat server

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    Lumelore (She/her) @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Got my balls destroyed today

  • Current mood

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  • That's me like 99% of the time. I have so many creative ambitions and I keep telling myself that'll work on them but I very rarely ever do.

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    Being a 22-year-old virgin or being 22 and never having been in a relationship is something to be shameful about.

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  • Dawg, I'm autistic and I've read it like 10 times and I still don't understand what the bottom part means. Like if it's meant for me it doesn't make sense and it would make sense applied to OP but then why is it not a reply to OP?

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    Being a 22-year-old virgin or being 22 and never having been in a relationship is something to be shameful about.

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  • I guess I should be very ashamed of myself then. I got my license at 21. I'm now 22 and still a virgin. I've known for a long time that I move slower than others and I really don't care. Like genuinely why do some people think having sex at a young age is like the most important thing ever?? Like why do you even care?

  • happiness is possible

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  • Same. Sometimes I simply just think about the fact that I am a woman and it makes me feel so happy. I still have occasional dysphoric days but they've been getting less frequent the further along I get.

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    Bro I’m in final year and literally know NOTHING, am I doomed? 😭

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  • I just recently graduated with a CS bachelors. Honestly I didn't learn too much in college either. Most stuff that was taught in college was stuff I already knew from learning Java on my own so I could make Minecraft mods as a tween.

    I wish that modern and widely used frameworks, libraries, etc were something that were taught at college but unfortunately you have to teach yourself this stuff. Right now I am working on and nearly finished with a Spring Boot + React project to add to my portfolio and I had to teach myself both of those. Whatever it is you want to learn, there should be docs and plenty of tutorials out there for it.

  • Smells

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  • When there's too many different food smells. I had a hard time in the school cafeteria as a kid and the noise was the worst but sometimes the food smells would get me too.

  • Anon updates GNU/linux

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  • This reminds me of when I was in middle school and did a Scratch game dev class. I decided to use multiplication instead of simple addition and subtraction to make my character jump because the latter looks horrible and janky. My teacher accused me of cheating the moment I pressed the space button. Even after I explained how it worked to her she still didn't believe me. I still got a good grade but after that she started watching me like a hawk; I assume she thought she would catch me cheating but never did since I was never cheating.

  • What are some of your euphoria stories?

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  • That reminds me of when I was graduating college a few months ago and it was my first time on campus since I did all my classes online. We had a rehearsal in this theater building and I didn't know where to go so I followed this group of women I saw. Turned out they were just heading for the restroom but one of them held the door open for me and internally I was like "eeeeeee yay! They see me as a woman!" Didn't have to go to the bathroom though so I kinda just walked in and then walked right out lol.

  • What are The signs about you being trans that your pre Crack self ignored/overlooked?

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  • One thing I remember is gaining muscle after working out for a few months and feeling this really confusing sadness when I noticed that my shoulders got broader. I was so confused as to why so many guys liked being muscular but it just made me really depressed instead. Took me a while to realize that that strange feeling was actually gender dysphoria.

  • I take things literally!!!

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  • I always go for D asap which ends up being C. I don't want to have a superficial conversation with someone I may never see again. For some reason I am more commonly asked "Any plans for the weekend?" and I always just say "nope" which usually ends the conversation there. One time someone hit me with a "Any plans for the holiday?" which really threw me off because I didn't have a canned response and I said "I'm picnicking" and I just felt so awkward and embarrassed that I froze and felt like covering my face.

  • Does vibe coding sort of work at all?

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  • I pretty much only use it to generate boilerplate. I've tried using it to learn the syntax of new languages and it kind of works, but in my experience just reading the docs is better even if it seems like a lot of text. Also your IQ really does not matter. You can learn anything as long as you're willing to put in the time and effort; don't compare yourself to others it's fine to go at your own pace. (I'm Autistic also btw)

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  • I'm Autistic and I struggle with driving too. There's too many things to pay attention to and it overwhelms my brain. It took me 5 tries to get my license. I genuinely would not drive if I didn't live in the US and had access to reliable public transport. I cope with this by being very cautious. I have a hard time determining speed and distance so sometimes I will sit at a stop sign for notably longer than I need to which upsets the people behind me but I think it's the only reason I haven't gotten in an accident yet. I hate how car brained people can be. There's nothing wrong with not being able to drive and lots of people in non-car brained countries who don't.

  • Anyone relate?

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  • I pretty much just sat at my desk, spaced out, and disassociated through most of grade school. In first grade I got detention for having a snowball fight, except I never did fight, and I was just picking up the snow to eat it (I was obsessed with eating snow as a kid). I was so confused and after that I felt like I couldn't play or engage with anything, so I began to disengage as well.

    It's only recently that I've realized disassociating and disengaging have made me very lonely and are no longer helpful to me and I've started trying to put more effort into socializing, but I'm also not that great at it.

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    Reverse Language Problems

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  • I tend to miss things people say if all I have is their voice, so I am definitely better at reading. If I am focusing on comprehending them it reduces my ability to remember what they are telling me, so I too do much better with written instructions.

    I took 5 years of French in highschool and I could understand my teacher just fine. Then when I graduated and wanted to continue learning French I would listen to French videos in the background, but I realized I was missing a lot of things, so I went to rewind the video, and then suddenly noticed it was so much easier for me to understand them if I could lip read.

    Then I started to remember how when I was kid, and my parents would have me call a relative for whatever reason, and sometimes I would just hear garbled english, and I'd be so nervous and not know what to do, so I'd just say "yeah" and hope that sufficed. This still happens to me, although not as much, but it's caused me to become phobic of phone calls.

    Now that I've realized how crucial lip reading is for me to understand speech, I now use only resources where I can actually see the person speaking if I want to practice that.

    (Also subtitles are awesome.)

  • Beauty comes from within

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  • I make 'em look normal with one thing off. My current character is a breton with her eyes all the way big, all the way apart, and all the way down, but is otherwise normal.

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    Lumelore (She/her) @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Venting Post...

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    Lumelore (She/her) @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Thoughts on reducing estrogen dose to form stockpile?

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    Lumelore (She/her) @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    titty rule

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    Lumelore (She/her) @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    What has your experience with HRT been like? I think mine might have been abnormally fast but I'm not sure.

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    Lumelore (She/her) @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    1 Year on HRT!

  • Blåhaj @lemmy.blahaj.zone
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    Blahaj sightings at the Twin Cities pride parade!

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    Viva la 196 (Obligatory rule)

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    Lumelore (She/her) @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Memories

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    Getting super emotional and depressed on a monthly cycle?

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    thrift storule

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    My mom keeps being weirdly partially supportive?

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    Lumelore (She/her) @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Got gendered correctly by a stranger for the first time today!

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    estrogen appreciation post rule

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    Lumelore (She/her) @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Where to find friends?

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    Is it normal for breast pain to come and go?