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NoStressyJessie

@ NoStressyJessie @lemmy.blahaj.zone

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  • Trying to kick the Cinderella Syndrome

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  • Awe! Thank you so much, rose!

  • Memories

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  • I keep all my old photos, every once in a while I’ll be talking to someone about things and decide I want to see a chronically depressed cadaver go through the motions of… I don’t even really know what… just tons of pictures.

    I got pictures of me blackout drunk staring disdainfully in a mirror, pictures of me trying to feign happiness in hundreds of locations at Disney World, pictures documenting the all day drinking and running through the woods at full bore on a 4 wheeler hoping I’d just smash my skull into a tree and die, the daily fire I would make when it was too dark to keep driving drunk through the woods and spend my nights getting more drunk hoping I’d pass out and get killed by wolves.

    Sure, If it was life or death I could find a smile or a happy photo, but almost all of them are stoic at best and I’m going to keep them.

    That poor fuck held on for something, and in his misery he gave me a life worth living, and for that he deserves his respect and honors. I cannot hate him or erase him. He hurt for so long, he wanted an undying death, and I myself gave him his wish.

    Of course, you should do what is best for you, I just have been diving a bit too far into how the Ship of Theseus problem intersects with my identity and personality here lately and have decided I literally AM a different person and that’s okay and consistent with me being the same person I always was, just with less repression.

  • Trying to kick the Cinderella Syndrome

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  • ‘cause right now all we have is time, time, time, and someday that time will run out, that’s the only thing we can be absolutely certain about.

    10 Things - Paul Baribau

    I’m on hormones, just sucks having to deal with the feelings and knowing it’s a waiting game.

    At least I’m doing something though.

    In between desperate gasping for air worth breathing and times worth living

    Pat the Bunny

  • Trying to kick the Cinderella Syndrome

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  • My brother has an OSRS account he named post rave blues, certainly relatable.

  • Trying to kick the Cinderella Syndrome

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  • It’s all good there is no advice.

    Thank you for the kind words about my writing style. It’s been a new compulsion of mine to document things. Everyone always told me to journal, but I didn’t see the point documenting the things I was desperately seeking any escape from.

  • Trying to kick the Cinderella Syndrome

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  • I’m definitely lacking the foot ware. Most of my shoes were leather boots, about 5 months ago I branched out and got some khaki sneakers and some white sneakers.

  • Trying to kick the Cinderella Syndrome

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  • Thanks Ellie, kind of a radical idea that I deserve a life worth living.

    I’ll have to remember that

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    NoStressyJessie @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Trying to kick the Cinderella Syndrome

  • Valentine's Day Ideas?

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  • Sounds like the unspoken idea is you name the roach after your ex

  • Femme for the first time at a funeral

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  • Awe, thanks.

    I get my glasses from Zenni Optical. I got some more feminine Prescription glasses and feminine sunglasses for $120 usd, they’re cheap enough that I can get random pairs and the virtual try on + feature on phones is amazing, realtime AR the frames on your face, desktop has an okay version that extracts frames from a webcam video and overlays the frames. Helped me pick some out I knew I’d like.

  • Femme for the first time at a funeral

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  • It was as good a time as it could be ☺️

    Thanks

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    NoStressyJessie @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Femme for the first time at a funeral

  • gobermnet oppression rulep

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  • See, this demonstrates the oppression inherent in the system, only people with economic freedom and the means to bring their own pencil to the ballot box are able to choose to eat ass or silica.

  • Metal rule

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  • I'm actually a fan of Cannibal Corpse, I saw the songs I didn't recognize and got excited. Turns out there was a new album out though, so it's not all bad.

  • Metal rule

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  • Awe.... The songs are fake :(

  • marijuanification rule

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  • Yeah, whooshed for sure.

    Frankly, I have no idea what the majority of modern American Evangelical style christians are going to do when and if they end up in front of their deity, because everything I've read and studied is pretty contrary to most of the modern Christian Political talking points. Jesus was very against the types of people christians today have become, Jesus certainly wouldn't have advocated for taking over Rome to become the new oppressors. These same folks believe the book of revelations is going to happen but they can't fathom being a part of the body of the great whore of babylon.

  • marijuanification rule

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  • I assume you were trying to reply to me.

    In some parts of christian purity culture, specifically for mormons allegedly, they think it's a big no no to have sex before marriage. They've come up with loopholes to avoid actually having sex but come as close to it as possible. Soaking is when you penetrate someone and just let it sit there with no movement. Allegedly on the BYU college campus, it is popular to go "soaking" while a friend of yours jumps on the bed nearby you to create the sensation of motion, this act is called "jump humping".

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  • If you want to see a parody of sex, just go, Google search “soaking” and “jump humping”. Purity culture ends up in some weird places.

  • E-books are fast becoming tools of corporate surveillance

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  • Well, in the linked comment, on the second line where it says to import the converted epub into editing software like sigil,there was a link to a piece of software called sigil, it’s for editing EPUB files, and it’s called sigil. It’s the second link in the comment that takes you to the EPUB editor software called sigil.

    I have been tempted to upload them for others to use, but all the authors that I’ve done it for are really small niche community authors, and I do not want to take support away from them.

    Just because I’m a broke ass bitch and have decided to re-copy them however I see fit for my personal consumption, doesn’t necessarily mean I want to become a bootlegger publisher.

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    I’ve been doing it for years to my personal books I download that I can’t find in ePub, I have no issues with my sanity. I also usually do this before I read the book, and double check my editing as I read it. 98% of the time I caught all the errors that were not present in the original text (it copies typos perfectly) .

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  • I would like to do something like that but I don’t want to be scrutinized about technically being a bootleg publisher.

    The books I did it to are from small authors writing for niche communities and I don’t want to make it easier to pirate than buy in that case. Anyone else can find those same PDFs on a website easy to search and well recommended by the community so the information is available, and if they want an ePub they can format it themselves or just buy the version from Amazon and support the author.

  • The Armed Gay Agenda @lemmy.blahaj.zone
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    Range day / Dec 10th / Bersa Thunder .380 ACP

    imgur.com /gallery/H3OKYBJ
  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    NoStressyJessie @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Well, I was outed to my grandparents. CW: Unaliving and self harm

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    NoStressyJessie @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Officially male failed for the first time at 4 months

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    NoStressyJessie @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Trying to cope with finally having regrets

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    NoStressyJessie @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    I wish my mom knew how bad she fucked up our relationship…

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    NoStressyJessie @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    The it’s been a while update

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    NoStressyJessie @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Just a simple progress report.

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    NoStressyJessie @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Well, waiting game is over. (CW: Transphobia, Christian Nationalism)

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    NoStressyJessie @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    For the first time since starting HRT I had the Reoccurring High School Nightmare™ last night.

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
    NoStressyJessie @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Update: Well, I came out to my mom, and now I play the waiting game.

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    NoStressyJessie @lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Well, I came out to my mom, and now I play the waiting game.

  • Transfem @lemmy.blahaj.zone
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    It’s been a rollercoaster of a day

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    Late night HRT euphoria

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    Late night HRT anxiety