if there is meaning to your choices, except that which you assign to it, you cannot know it. do as you please, do what feels right or don't. accepting everything may not lead to happiness, but, other than the necessary mental faculties, it is the only requirement for contentment.
Try bellawhiskey.ca/trollegle. It's a silly little chat site. Will not necessarily be alive when you join, but there are a few regular visitors. I would recommend to avoid speaking to _ though.
oh, thanks. i'm shtewpid.