U sure ur fem?
I went through a similar phase, and I kind of decided that I like my expression to be more gender neutral, but I still really enjoy certain frilly feminine things. I just don't wear them that much, or at all.
Maybe I'm more like you, but I'm just deeper in the hole of denial. 😅
If you aren't interested in cultivating more social hobbies, you could always get outside and people watch.
I got for walks and just being around other people and knowing they're there. Helps a bit with the loneliness.